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Let's just say that today is not a good day! Got up at 5 am took meds for headache which is what I had at the time. When getting up it was a full blown migraine. They have been plaguing for over 2 weeks coming and going. And no it is not a sign of something wrong. I have been one of the unlucky ones. When I started being a young lady they started along with ungodly cramps....mom always said "after menopause they will go away" right!!!! not happening....so I still suffer from them. Sometimes nightmare trigger them or stress or just because they want to visit me. There really is not rhyme or reason for them. I have had all sorts of tests done to see what is going on and they find nothing that is there causing them. So I take my meds and deal with it. I think right now it is because I have cut back on the caffeine, not drinking as much coffee as I did. 

I started a diet on 10/7/12 I have lost as of today 8 lbs.  For you who want to know what I am using it is called HCG1234. Here is the website 
http://www.hcg1234.com/index.html I order it from walmart on line. they have it at 29. a bottle and it is the exact same thing that they are charging a arm and leg for. It has high reviews from users and it is backed by a dr. Let me tell you I was skeptical of it because in the past I have tried most everything on the market and that is including diet centers. And no results other than maybe 10 lbs and it did not stay off. This is rerouting your eating habits and the way you look at food. I will admit that the first couple of days was hard for me. But I stayed with it.  And in the long run it is working and I am amazed at the results. I am eating and not starving with it. My hardest thing with it is that there has to be a breakfast, lunch and dinner. I have to portion out my stuff. I am one of these people who really just have coffee all through the day, maybe something to snack on and then do dinner. But I have had to change how I eat....

On a more personal note!!!!!! There has always been a couple of things that I have always wanted to do and  while my mom was alive I dared not to have it done as she had this thing about tattoos it was alright for men to have them but not women.....so after she passed away I got a small tattoo. which now needs touched up as color is fading.....and I wanted a second one but never knew what I wanted. But I have found it just not doing it yet....and the other thing I wanted to do was get piercing done on my nips. So recently I got up the nerve to brave the needle and get them done. Course brother and sister in law is rolling their eyes at me.
But now I have no one to answer to but myself and to me it is not a problem. I love jewelry and  that is another place that I can put it at least when they heal that is. Yeah you can say I have lost my mind but I really have not!

We have been having really weird temps. Some days it is really low temp and the nights really really low. My brother is thinking we will have a snowy winter this year. I am hesitate about it. Been long long time I have driven  in it. But I am excited to see it also. Weird huh? The last time I saw snow was about 14 yrs ago. Other than the tiny bit we had last winter. 

I have been here in Il now for 1 yr. If I count off incidents that have happened since Dec 2009 I was able to see very clearly what my life was like.  I almost died in Dec 2009 I spent 11 days in hospital. Actually the surgeon did not think I would live. I had gallstones so bad they filled up the gallbladder and went down in the liver and bile duct. The liver was starting to shut down on me.I had gangrene all through out my organs and everywhere.  I did not feel any pain because at the time I was dealing with alot of pain due to my face and all and high tolerance for pain.  I actually did not feel it until right before I went to the hospital. I was very lucky that the surgeon that was working that day was one of the best in his field and highly credited. He was a blessing because he saved my life. He told me he would always remember me because I was one of the cases that he worked a miracle on. I will thank the lord for having him as my doctor. 
Recovery was really hard on me. I had to go see him every week for almost 3 months. I came home with tubes and bags attached to me. One from the liver and one from the bile duct. They stayed in almost the whole 3 months.  Then I had to have another surgery later that same year. 2010 was my jammy year that was what I mostly wore. During this time before going into the hospital I found out that Dad had passed away in Oct  09. 2010 was also a eye opener to the real state of my marriage. another 16 yrs down the drain.....I won't go into the details of it for those who really know me and all they know what happened. 2011 was a very difficult year for me in lots of ways. The incident that resulted in me living with daughter and family. And taking care of her and her home. She was so sick but I never knew how sick she was as she tried not to let people know it. She passed away 13 days after her 33 birthday....The move to Illinois in Oct of that same year. In Feb 2013 I will have been separated from the asshole I am married to. I will be filing for a divorce around the first of the year. That will be a great start to a new year. After moving up here and getting a new doctor she gave me a rx and lets just say it was a miracle. All the pain I was having from my tmj has now gone away. First time since in my 20's that I am pain free...awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thoughts have escaped me that I wanted to write so I will catch you on the flip side!!!