Not a lot that is. Other than I am so stressed out right now can not think straight. So bad that I am picking at my skin--face, neck. And having the auditory hallucinations that come with my bipolar 1 with pyschois. I hate it when it acts up. I have issues sleeping as I can not get calm enough to rest very good. I hear music complete with words or people arguing, not voices telling me to do things to myself or anyone else. It drives me crazy.....I lose days, sometimes time also. I have issues of being able to hold on to a thought as I can not seem to be able to grab it out of all that is going on in my head.
I forget things, hide things I think I will remember where they are.
Because of the stress it has caused minor issues with my bipolar. At least the second half of the diagnosis is the psychosis. When I am having it whether I am manic or bipolar depression. I have auditory sounds. Anything from music to chatter. It is difficult to deal with and I get a lack of sleep because of it. My mp3 player does not have a long enough charge on it to last for hours so that I can drown them or it out. This is not something that I usually say anything about because people look at you and they see a crazy person because of it. I AM NOT CRAZY I PROMISE YOU THAT!!!!
But have to honest to myself and admit it to myself that this phase is going on…. Because there is no one else that can point it out to you.
I am so lucky with my problems with it I am not one to do the excessive spending of money like some do. That seems to have passed me over. Thank God. I hate to shop so maybe that is what helped me to not to have it. I do not write checks. I use my debit/check card and then I know what has been spent and where it goes.
Flying out Tuesday afternoon going to Florida to take care of the business of closing out the estate of my father. About time as it has now been 2 years now. So going down and doing it and placing it up for sale. One I will never go back to Florida to live nor would I like at it. Even though he was my father we did not get along very well at all. Never did. Then I have to make a trip into Jacksonville to see about placing the cemetery plot up for sale that was not used for him. as he is in the bottom of my curio cabinet. (going to cover him and all in a pretty please fabric). Thank god I am not going alone. Marty my sister in law is going with me. First time for her to fly. So I will be sure not to lose her in the airport.
My niece Lauren is coming to take care of my babies while I am gone. They love her.
I have been working on a crazy quilt lap quilt - 2 of them. Really a new item for me to do. I have never done one of them before. I think I will have fun with them as it allows you to be creative with the embellishments on it.
I better get off here. I have things that has to be done before I can fly out.
So will post after we get back.
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