Heat and more heat

Today is another scorching day here. Would not have believed the fact that it is as hot here as Florida. Thought I left all the heat down there. Surprise surprise!!!!!


Not much going on here. I am ironing pieces of fabrics to be able to use after washing and drying them. And maybe some sewing if I can get up the energy to do so. I really need to do it but right now it is hard for me to sit and sew when in the state of bipolar issues that are swinging. 


Taking care of Sacha who has an appointment tomorrow to check his leg. I could not have gotten Sacha taken care of with the surgeon without my brothers help. I owe him big time, not just money but for caring enough to do so for me. I am fortunate to have a brother who loves me regardless of anything going on in my life. He has always been there to chatter to prior to me moving up here. Now I just go over to see him and Marty. 


  I had to put Sacha  in a deeper bin as he figured out how to get out the other one. Which dangerous as my floor is not carpeted in the front of the house. So it is very important that he stays in the area the dr told me to keep him. So now rather than a pretty clear bin he is in a pink one, and not a happy camper. He does get out of it. I get him out and we cuddle in the recliner. 


Today is one of those days I could and can pull into myself and just let life flow around me. I am in the short stage of numbness that exists between the cycles of going from mania to depression and not sure which way it is going to go and not much I can do to stop it. I just have to hang on for the ride. I do take my medication, and people think "oh you take medicine you should be just fine, and not have issues with it". let me tell you that is ignorance speaking for them. Just because you take medicine does not mean that you are cured or that you can still experience the mania and depression. And lucky lucky me. I have bipolar disorder 1. Which means that I have them much more intense than someone with type 2. There is nothing easy with dealing with it. At the worst end of it with the severe depression you have the tendency to get in the  suicidal stage. And trust me that is not where I want to go. So far since being up here with minimal stress it has not reared it ugly head as of yet. Thank God for that. 


The best thing about learning to live alone (well not really if you count 5 parrots and a tomcat) is that I have no one yelling at me if something is not done to suit them, or if I choose to lay down for a short nap as I have really bad issues with sleeping. I only have to answer to myself about things. I can talk with my friends without someone picking up the other phone and listening in on me. I have the freedom to go out and about which I did not have. I am not timed or tracked with where I go or what I am doing. You can not believe the awesomeness of it.   Learning to be my own person and regain my independence is so real now, this is something that I have not had in 15 yrs. What a fool I was to stay in that state of a relationship with a person I grew to hate, because of the way he treated me. No person should have to live in that sort of conditions. Although I do know it goes on more than people even suspect. 


I have to get off of here and get motivated to get stuff done. 
Have a good day folks!